Category: Grieving
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I Would Choose You Again
Mother’s day weekend I strategically focused on healing. It was the first year I knew I needed to confront the pain that I felt. I invited Jesus to a weekend “away”. I wanted to go to the beach but was unable to do so. It ended up being one of the best opportunities for the…
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He is…
This morning I heard a whisper. I know His voice well. It is a voice I long to hear every waking moment and in my dreams while I sleep. He said, “I am returning everything to you.” It has felt like one loss after another for quite some time lately. It hasn’t felt like devastation…
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In the Losing
When life is heavy and my heart is thick with pain what will I find? Can I explore a part of your heart, God, that I’ve never known in triumph? When I find myself being consumed with heartbreak where the pain at first invades any longings and hopes of what we thought would be…Can I…
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New Mercies For A Hard Day
There are a million words I have wanted to say and a million thoughts that have dropped from my eyes. Tears have often been the only words needed to communicate when pen to paper runs dry and words fail to communicate the sorrows and the joys.Oh what great beauty there is when victories come every…
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I Screamed At God
Hi friend, I know it’s been some time since I’ve blogged or posted anything too inspirational. If I am to be honest with you since January 1st I have been grieving certain things in life. Each week presented some other loss. Sometimes I tend to focus on whatever needs to be done and make sure…
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A Piece Of Heaven
Five years ago my Mom breathed her last breath here on Earth to make her journey home to Heaven. Those who have walked a similar journey understand the longing for that person. Some days Heaven feels far. Many have followed the journey the past five years and I am grateful for you. Today, I am…
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Baking and Dandelions
The aroma of homemade banana bread fills my home. It brings back memories of my Mom. I sing and dance in my kitchen as I whip up my own recipe. My eyes get misty as I remember her. As much as my Mom taught me how to follow recipes we never really stuck to it…
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My Dear Angel Child
Today you would have been 5 months old. A year ago you made your grand entrance into heaven instead. I will never understand why you had to go so soon. I will never understand why out of nowhere you came and out of nowhere you left. You were a gift that sparked new hope. Because…
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A Letter To Michael
I know I already gave birth to you. I know your birth was too soon. Since Dec 18th I know that I will get to hold you in my arms someday. This weekend would have been the time I would have brought you into this world and cradled you close. Your due date was July…
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Memories
Memories are complex. The other night I was thinking of my Mom. I remembered when she was pregnant with my brother and how sick she was. It was almost as if I experienced being a little girl again who wanted my Mom to feel better again. Being a child I thought that by sharing my…
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