Tag: letting go
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He is…
This morning I heard a whisper. I know His voice well. It is a voice I long to hear every waking moment and in my dreams while I sleep. He said, “I am returning everything to you.” It has felt like one loss after another for quite some time lately. It hasn’t felt like devastation…
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In the Losing
When life is heavy and my heart is thick with pain what will I find? Can I explore a part of your heart, God, that I’ve never known in triumph? When I find myself being consumed with heartbreak where the pain at first invades any longings and hopes of what we thought would be…Can I…
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Embrace the Onion Layers!
As I am watching a chick flick today I am reminded of many things that I miss. I miss watching chick flicks with my Mom and my sister. I miss girls shopping days. There was never something so fun to recharge with coffee and pick out the perfect outfit. It took me several months…
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Choosing Love Daily
There is nothing quite like having a heart full of gratefulness despite difficult seasons. There is power in your personal testimony when you begin to honestly describe your journey, not to gain sympathy but to praise God for bringing you through it. I have had several people ask me how I have been able to…
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Letting Go
The past several weeks a few profound thoughts have helped me to understand what my journey of letting go looks like. I have realized that letting go does not mean forgetting; that forgiving does not mean that everything will go back to the way it once was but rather reconciliation is the next step. People…
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The Calm And The Sunshine
I have to admit that I was in rebellion against my own process of working through grieving since I last wrote. Each time I would start to write I just felt a little frustrated that I was struggling the way that I was. Instead of writing I chose to pack or unpack. This transition in…
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When Two Worlds Collided
Two worlds collided over Memorial Day weekend. It was a weekend that was full of many different emotions: heartache, pain, sorrow, yet full of joy for our Father. It is so hard to describe exactly every little feeling. It all felt so surreal. It is most difficult to process two worlds that do not…
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The Crashing Waves
There are moments in life when everything comes rushing in all at the same time. Sometimes it feels like I am in the sea, waves crashing against me one after the other. When I begin to look around at everything that is going on around me, it can take my breath away. The waves are…
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Learning Not To Look Back and Forgiveness
Last night as I was talking with God about everything that has gone on and is going on, I had a healing experience. Recently I have been working through feelings of anger that I never had before. I have been angry because other people that I love are hurting and there is nothing I can…
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A Letter To My Mom
I know that you are in the best place imaginable. I am thankful that you are no longer in pain. But today the distance and the separation is way too far. I see your name in my phone and I want to call or text you. I still send you emails because I imagine you…
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